The one who got away

I haven't had the privilege of meeting the guy who would say yes to everything and anything I want to do. And it crushes my heart, especially since I've said no to so many people in the past. I feel like saying no is my most used phrase. And I don't think it should be anymore. I want to say yes, I want to say fuck it, I'll do it right now! But it's not in my nature to say yes. I was always a cautious child, a safe teenage, and now a weary adult. I don't know if I ever be able to say yes to a lot of things that someone like he has to offer me... And that scares me.

I think I'm already half way in love with him... His name is Timothy, and he makes me wild in bed, and even more wild when he's not around.